Thursday, May 1, 2014

This Army is Mine

So, I've got this little rant I'd like to get off my chest. It's about what some people consider to be actual art. It just... it drives me nuts when people tell me that if it comes out of a box, it can't be considered true art because all the artistic license is lost.
Some modern art fanatics say game miniature painting isn’t an art. Critics say it isn’t truly a creative craft, because it comes out of a box pre-molded; that most of the work has already been done. They couldn’t be more wrong. It is art. It is moderately guided art, but it is still a work of creativity.
It does begin when the modelist takes that first model out of the box, but that’s where the store bought regularity ends. Their heart drops as they realize how little the clumps of plastic attached to sprues resemble the beautifully painted soldiers on said box.
With clippers in hand and a haphazard set of tools including sculpting knives, super glue, and some “Zap” spray, the artist gets to work. The directions they were given are a mess. “This piece goes where?” “Why can’t I find that piece on the sprue?” “Oh great, I glued it on backward.” Like the painter who has to go back and paint base white over his ruined landscape, the model assembler must cut the glue or start over with a new box.
After hours of trial and error, eventually they have a bland grey plastic model barely resembling the tapestry on the box. The tiny cultist scowls lifelessly at the artist, daring them to slap some paint on it. The modelist cracks his knuckles and picks up the paintbrush. Several tiny pots of special paints, glazes, and technical ooze litter the newspaper coated tabletop.
Just to be safe, they do some research online to find out exactly how to do this sort of painting. After frustrating hours of searching through hundreds of sites detailing their own paint jobs, finally the artist finds a few videos on Youtube giving some tips on painting simple models like the tiny cultist they hold in their hand.
First they start with the black spray on primer. This only takes a few seconds to spray on, but takes about five hours to dry fully. By then they’ve scoured all the different paint schemes online one could mimic with the few paints they took home from the store. “But why not create your own? Surely, there’s room to be more original than simply copying what everyone else is doing.”
Finally, they bring tiny dried black model over to their overly neat shrine of paints. The tiny pot of “Loren Forest Green” stands open. The paintbrush rests in their hand, hovering over the model as they try to decide where to start. “Should I start from the bottom and work my way up, or should I start at the top and let gravity do some of the work?”
They hesitate. “What if it sucks? What if it looks horrible when I’m done? What if the others laugh at me and tell me to play another game with the other new artists?” All this runs through their mind until finally they start to paint. The voices inside go silent as nothing else seems to matter but the model. The paint settles easily into the tiny cracks and crevices of tiny plastic trousers as their paint brush glides over the smooth surface. They feel like a pocket clocksmith bent over the tiny gears and bobbles with tiny tools and a monacle.
Without fail, some of the paint gets in places they don’t want it. Painting at this scale takes a steady hand, and they’ve just started. They grumble and consider giving up, but they remember the modelers online telling them not to worry about some of the paint getting away from them. All that will be fixed with touch ups. They picture the writer sneering at his own work as he skims and deletes this or rewrites that.
Next color up. “Rakkarth Flesh,” a sort of pale skin color adorns the brush and they start to apply it to the body and head. More painting ensues as they apply new colors and get little speckles onto parts they’ve already painted. They go back to touch that up before moving to the next color only to make more mistakes.
After hours of toiling over one tiny little model, they feel ready to give up. They’ve spent literally days over one guy and they still have a whole army to paint. How does anyone ever get this done? How does any artist become a master at their skill. They suddenly feel overwhelmed. They feel like just commissioning someone else to paint it for them. But no, they’re determined to do this. This is their army. They are the master.
After spending what seems like an eternity doing cleaning and touch ups and adding technical layers and washes in all the right places, finally they have some semblance of a completed model. It’s no masterpiece, but its their first. The ugly model scowls behind fleshy and bony teeth as it glares with inhuman pupilless eyes. The dagger and gun they tried to portray as rusty looks more like a sloppy orange paint job. The green pants came out well, though slimy and dirty looking. It’s playable as long as nobody looks too close.
But, this is just the beginning. They can remember mom putting their finger painted picture of the house and family on the fridge under a magnet. She was so proud, and they wanted to make more. Now, they’re at the beginning again but with a more 3D approach.
Some months later, they look at their work and notice they have a full army that they painted alone. The models shriek behind their many spikes, skulls, and plates of armor. Many of it has been sculpted from scratch out of “Green Stuff,” a product of soft plastic that one mixes together to form into a hard plastic cement after some hours of drying. Ghouls, demons, and cultists by the dozen glisten in magnificent putrescence.
This is their masterpiece. Every model is perfect. There’s nothing like the feeling of having a complete army at their feet literally crafted to the exact image they had in mind. This is art as pure as any painting, sketch, or sculpture.
Many great works of art are made with constraints or controls in place to direct the artist. Going by the same rationality that great art cannot come from a box, one would leave out many creative works. Would one consider cooking to be a farce since some of the ingredients came out of a box? What about the home mechanic who built a car on his own with parts that were technically prefabricated? Even the Sistine Chapel was a commissioned work of art that restricted Michelangelo’s creative process. He wasn’t free to explore every possibility and create anything he desired. Is it not considered true art?
Model assembly and painting is art. Go to your nearest gaming store and look inside the displays. Those are not toys purchased from Walmart. Those armies of elves, androids, zombies, goblins, space marines, and so forth are all put together piece by piece and painted painstakingly and with great care. Those beautiful sheens on vehicles are done with love by real artists. I challenge any modern artist to try painting an army of game models.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Gladsong the Dagger

Gladsong
J. Wesley Hill
Wynan Thatch sat glaring into the fireplace, beckoning for it to consume him. Tears stained his thin face and matted his thick grey beard.
“Master,” the voice of some god of mischief echoed from the silver dagger, Gladsong, hanging from his belt. “You shouldn’t cry so much. This amount of stress isn’t healthy.”
Wynan sobbed and threw back another long gulp from his leather wineskin.
“Did you know that wine is literally poison?” The dagger gasped. “Master! You could get tumors! I insist that you stop drinking that wine this instant!”
Wynan heaved a disgruntled sigh and strapped the wineskin to his belt. He stood and yawned.
“Don’t get too close to the fire, master. You could burn yourself. Watch your step, it’s dark out. You should’ve eaten something! You’re getting skinny, Master. You look tired. You should get some sleep.”
His footsteps echoed through the hall above the inn as he trudged to his room. Without care or worry, he dropped his clothes and accessories to the floor and flopped onto the bed.
“Don’t worry, Master. I’ll keep a lookout.”
Wynan passed out almost immediately. Outside, dark shadows pooled in the alleyways. Figures of doom crept to the windows seeking to kill travelers for their purses.
“Eeeee! Master! Danger, Master Wynan!” The sleepy bard turned over and shoved the pillow over his head. The assassin outside curled up into a ball in the alley with a mostly eaten, moldy leg of mutton. “Oh… it’s just a beggar. Go back to sleep master.”
“Eeeee! Master! Fire! Danger! No… no wait, the innkeeper is just stoking the fireplace…”
“Eeeee! Master! I think the man in the next room is plotting to kill you! Get up! No, no wait. He was just thirsty. You can go back to sleep.”
“Eeeee! Master! Ratmen are swarming the city! They’re going to eat everyone alive! No, wait. It’s just a mouse in the kitchen. Ew. Don’t eat any of the bread, master.”
“Eeee! Master! Did you lock the window? I don’t think you did. I insist that you get up and lock it this instant before someone crawls through and tries to kill you.”
The poor man slid out of bed with dark circles sagging under his eyes. He took another gulp from the wineskin and slunk to the window. He opened it and stared into the dark alley below.
“Master, you need to sleep. And I told you to stop drinking that.”
He leaned over the edge, pleading to the cobblestones below to take him.
“Now master, we’ve been through this. I can only resurrect you once a month. If you keep intentionally dying, I have to wait for you to come back. I get lonely, master!”
Wynan sagged to the floor and buried his face in his hands. He tossed the cursed silver dagger aside and crawled toward the door.
“Master! Don’t leave me here! Remember that time you left me at the Dragonclaw Inn and the orc found me? I had to convince him to find you and try to kill you! He was successful, but I brought you back! I always find my way back to you!”
Wynan sighed and recovered the dagger before slogging back down the stairs.
“You’re up early, Sir” the fair haired bar maiden greeted him. “Would you like something to eat?”
“Yes, please,” Wynan’s voice was silk and honey.
The girl winked and fetched him some stew, a small loaf, and a pint of fine mead. “You must be a bard.”
Wynan nodded and set the bread aside. He tore into the stew like a starved wolf.
“Master, chew your food! Master, slow down! You’re going to choke! Oh, now look what you’ve done, you’re choking. The wench is screaming! Gods, her voice is awful. It’s not helping at all. Your face is turning purple. Careful when you fall down, Master. Don’t hit your head too hard or you’ll have a headache for days. Great, Master, see what you’ve done? Now I can’t use it again until next month. Are you happy now?”
“H-how…?” The bar maiden stared at Wynan in horror. The pitcher of mead she held had spilled all over her dress, but she wasn’t paying any attention. The bard had been raised from the dead and he didn’t even seem to notice.
“It’s the dagger,” Wynan sighed. He slumped over and buried his face in his arms. His dirty cotton shirt sleeves soaked through with new tears. “Damn thing won’t let me die.”
“Don’t cry, Master,” the dagger moaned. “This much stress isn’t good for your health.”

Friday, April 25, 2014

Pen Names

So, I've been thinking about a pen name for a long time, since it's important to choose a name to go with one's stories... among other reasons. I don't remember what they all are at the moment, but they're important.
Anyway, more to the point, I have a few ideas I wanna throw out there. Let me know what you think.

Robert Aaron
Robert Westley
W Aaron Roberts
Robert Jason

I'll add more when I think of them. Let me know if you have any ideas.

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Doctor Smith

“You can come out now. I know you’re hiding. It’s okay, I have no weapons.”
The silk drapes by the window parted to reveal the assassin veiled in black. Doctor Smith stood tall with short dark hair. His face was long and bore a greying goatee which ended in a point. A thick red night robe complete with a warm silk scarf adorned this his shoulders.
He sighed and opened a globe on the side table by one of the several lounge chairs in his personal library. Inside was a mini bar. “Would you care for a drink? No? Well, before you kill me, at least let me explain what I’ve done. I need to get this off my chest. As the child of the man I murdered, I knew you would find me sooner or later. Have a seat, please.”
The assassin hesitated a moment before holstering his pistol. He remained standing with his arms crossed.
“Have it your way. It began years ago. This man paraded across town on a regular basis wreaking havoc on our fair city. Oh, he wasn’t the only one, but he was the best of them. His inventions caused devastation on a regular basis. Whole companies went under due to rebuilding costs. Insurance couldn’t keep up. All this unbridled mayhem is still pushing our country into another financial depression.”
Doctor Smith paused for a moment to pour himself a glass of brandy. The amber liquid matched the man perfectly; a harsh yet delicate drink that could only be consumed in small doses. This was a man of poise, a man who demanded respect.
He continued. “But, the important bit is all the people he killed. Every building destroyed by one of his crazy robots or one of his death rays resulted in the deaths of hundreds of people. For what? To get back at his nemesis? To purge the city of the unworthy? Most of the time, their kind have well understood motives. Your father was just reckless.”
The doctor sighed and took a seat nearby with the glass of brandy in his hand. Now that he was closer to the light, the assassin saw the dark bags under his eyes. There were deep wrinkles in his brow, not from age but from stress. A man of his early thirties should not be quite so grey.
“And so we come to just a few nights ago. Your father lay before me on a gurney, clothed in his garish costume and mask. He was facing one of his more powerful enemies that night. Several blocks had been obliterated from that combat. Wounded civilians were pouring into the hospital in droves. Being the best surgeon this side of the country, I was tasked to help your father.
“This man who was but a creature of chaos and destruction was now in my domain, helpless and under my complete control. I alone could decide whether he was to live or die.”
Dr. Smith leaned back and picked up a framed picture from the table next to him. The photo depicted a wedding between a much younger man in a rented tuxedo and a beautiful woman with chestnut colored hair. They smiled behind the glass with a glimmer of love in their eyes. “She died that night, you know. The same night your father did. She was working late at the Rathsberg Insurance office when it came crashing down from the spider robot thing. Just one of many deaths…
His hands shook as he replaced the picture. He picked up a polished wooden pipe and puffed thick clouds of noxious smoke as he lit it. “I hope you don’t mind. I’d like a smoke before I die. Where were we?
“As you know, I’m under oath to do everything in my power to save the life of whatever patient I’m charged with. It is my duty as a medical practitioner to treat every man, woman, and child exactly the same no matter their background. For the most part, we never know anything more than their name and medical history. But everyone knew exactly who he was.
“I had to make a decision, and believe me it wasn’t easy. Should I do my duty as a professional surgeon and save this man’s life? Or, should I purposefully make a critical mistake on the operating table and end the suffering caused by this one man? If I let him die, I would be saving countless lives.
“Of course, you know the answer. I made a mistake. The incision was just a hair too deep and his heart couldn’t take it. It was an extremely difficult procedure. Everyone knew the risks, and no one blamed me for it. I murdered your father and nobody knew.”
Dr. Smith raised his glass and gave the assassin a humorless smile. “Well, except for you of course, and probably just about anyone who knows me well enough to understand I don’t make mistakes.”
He swallowed the rest of his brandy and sighed. His grey-blue eyes stared at nothing as he leaned back in his heavy chair. “I’ve made my peace. I’m ready to die.”

It Begins

So, I've been writing short stories for years now, but I've been trying to find a way to share it with everyone. I've gone from DeviantArt down to less reputable sites like FurAffinity and even Fanfiction sites, trying to get some input.

Now, some of my more promising works I'll be posting on ebooks for a really really low price to see if I can get some money out of it, God knows I need it... But for now, I'd like to share some of my much smaller works after revision.

In the meantime, I'm following Joseph Inzirillo who is one of the writers in my Creative Writing class at Olympic College. I do recommend following his blog as well and seeing what he has to offer. He's working on a book by writing several chapters into short stories that will eventually become a novel. It seems like a novel idea to me. :p I may or may not continue on some of my stories, depending on how much of a following I get and whether or not you think it's interesting.

SO, I'm going to do a bit of revising on a story titled "Doctor Smith" and post it in a little while so you get an idea of what I'm working on.